I just sent Hazel some flowers, because I feep sorry for her.
It sounds like shes in real pain, but when will I ever learn to let go ?

Its such a shame that all the past 15 years was how it was. And even more so, seeing as it was mostly my fault.

Ho hum. I'm just happy that I have almost sorted my life out, which is crap seeing as I am almost fifty. A slow learner, and I'm not there yet.
I think I'm over Hazel, or over myself and alcohol maybe.