Monday, oh crap, Monday.
Not much. Drank almost 8 tins of crappy lager on Saturday. Went and marshalled for the Midland open '10 on Sunday morning. That made me feel a bit better, putting something back into the sport. Apart from taking Dad for dinner that was about all I did on Sunday. Sent Hazel a couple of texts on Sunday but no reply yet. I wonder is at all over ? I was going to visit Manchester this week, partly to watch the Masters world championships at the velodrome, I will probably just go to see the racing now, and not try and contact H anymore.
Racing - is my season over ? I am planning to ride the track on Friday, there are three more Fridays racing. And a Midland '16 on Sunday, a '10 the following then finally the hill climb on the last Sunday in September. But, the way I'm feeling now I doubt if I can keep up the keeness to train for another three weeks. What a deadbeat.
What a disappointing (apart from my little unexpected sucess story on the track !) season.
Well, I suppose I looking at what I have done, there is my improved time and top 20 position in the Wyre Forest Hilly TT, my improved time and second place in the Midland RT '5. But is was my stunningly poor performance on the road that really depressed me. Was it down to my crash in the final race last year ? I certainly feel nervous in a bunch and prefer to leave a big gap between me and the othres, which simply wont work in a race. The only possible way of doing this is to be just off the back. This means spending much of the time in a race closing gaps which wears me out more than going hard on the front. Dickhead.